Well i'm just as stressed as i was last time i posted something... exam week next week... oh shit... gonna fail in life... i miss my ex sooo much... talked to him on the phone on sunday... talked very briefly about meeting up... he said he'd call but i doubt he'll do that... i hope he will though... but yeah that's about it... i should probably do some work though... Stressfully Unhinged D-:

Boo-School-Stress

Boo! tomorrow i go back to school... i have 5 different tests i haven't revised for, art and dt prep i haven't done, friends who are all coping a million times better than me and to top it off no boyfriend to lean on... so sigh... i will just persevere and see what happens i suppose... nothing worth slitting my wrists over... but yeah... that is all... stressfully unhinged D-:

thinking-pathetic-plan

so... hmm... was thinking about my last post... kinda pathetic.... doesn't mean i'm over my ex guy... hmm... but i'm gonna try to not miss him so much... that's my plan... hmm... yeah... that is all... still depressed unhinged

AAAAAH!!!!!

I FEEL INSANELY SHITTY!!!! I MISS HIM SOOO MUCH.... i want to call him... i want to sprint from bath to bristol to find him... i want to tell him how i'll do anything i can to be with him... but i can't... i have to smile and say i'm fine and talk to my family as if he never existed... because as far as they know he didn't... i miss him and it's only been a week.... ONE WEEK... and i'm dying over here... how the hell am i suppose to do this.... someone please tell me... give a short cut or a cheat to just skip the pain bit and get to the bit where i can read the old texts he sent me without bursting into tears... and it doesnt help that he won't reply to the text i sent him nearly an hour ago... AAAAAH!!! i can't do this... i've been in my room crying for literally HOURS... i'm still not out of tears... i don't wan't to be this person... it SUCKS!!!

Back-Not my guy-Beyond crappy

hello... im back from Greece but leaving for Italy tomorrow... well saw my guy earlier... but he's not my guy anymore because he broke up with me... he said it was because of the age thing... i hope that's all it was... not much faith in that hope though... so yeah i cried a lot when he said we shouldn't be together like that... i think he still wants to be "friends" though... so that's a slap in the face... when we said by i basically burst into tears the second i turned around... then i walked around town crying for a while... so yeah... currently feeling beyond crappy... too crappy to be weird it would seem... insanely depressed unhinged