Everything

Every smile, every kiss
Everything that lead to this

Each perfection, every flaw
All the things that I adore

Every warm, loving embrace
Every scent and every taste

All the things you said we’d be
All the things you meant to me

Every part of me that died
When you said it was all lies


no i'm not dead and just so you know my guy and i are back together... contrary to what the poem might suggest... and we are very much in love... i will try writing some more happy poems soon... ish

new post-Malaysia-nervous

haven't posted anything in a really long time... sorry person who reads my blog... i've been in my house in Malaysia for the summer... i go back to England in 20 days... uh oh i haven't done any work for school.... SHIT!!! :-S nervously unhinged

this is what i was doing during the boring-as end-of-year service we had earlier today :-] xx

Brand New- Joy- xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

WHOOP! i have ALL the Brand New albums!!! JOY!!! soooo happy... got them from these super sweet guys on my street who go to my school!!! love them sooooooooo much right now... they also gave me a bunch of Funeral For A Friend stuff so yeah... also it's the end of the school year!!! yay!!! so happiness is insuing over here... :-D

Re Cap of My Life (I've been busy with school and such, hence the lack of blogging)

This is an ACE llama i drew in class :-D

So... long time no blog... best get the zero people who read this up to speed with my life... so i think my ex is now officially my "friend"... which is surprisingly nice... i mean i still reeeaaally like him but friends will be fine... better then never seeing him again...

so yeah... you may have noticed i'm in a pretty good mood... well better then usual... that's because ALL my exams of this school year ended today!!! whoop!!! also i'm just generally quite happy... which is good... i've been having rubbish sleep lately but that's really a minor thing...

anyway... back to my ex... i put this picture up on facebook of me and my friend sam kissing and my dumbass (well no he's like this insane physics genius) ex (who as i mentioned is now officially my friend) left this comment "Awwwh XD I'm happy for you, xx"... i called him... told him it was just to chat but i subtly made it very clear things between me and sam are NOT like that... but still... what does he mean "I'm happy for you" i mean if i saw him kissing a girl i be like "NOOOOOOOoooo!!!" i suppose he's just over me... kind of sucks... but i kind of knew anyway... so yes i digress... Strangely Happily Unhinged :-]

Love Doodles

Some more love doodles... told you they'd come.... eventually :-P

Last Kiss

Yo all... i know i promised doodles BUT i actually managed to write a poem that i ACTUALLY like... first for everything right??? so yeah here you go... it's called 'last kiss'

The thrill that once ran through me
Is now a thread of fear
And what once came as laughter
Has now become a tear
You’re eyes, they used to glisten
I think they lost their shine
You’re lips, though soft seem distant
Even caressing mine
You’re hands are cold and empty
As they venture in my hair
They hold no heat or passion
Just floating like cold air
You’ve now become a darkness
A shadow long been cast
And the worst part of the kiss we share
Is knowing it’s our last.

Doodles coming soon :-]

Hisies... don't worry... if you're getting bored of reading about my life... i will be putting up more doodles soo... it's just that my printer/scanner is sooo beyond retarded and disfunctional... oh well... yeah... just a note to say more doodles on the way!

Vain-Confusion-Hope

Hello all... i've decided to be vain and tell you about my life... celebrate! well it's been about a month and a half since my guy broke up with me... and i still get that sinking, deflated feeling whenever i think about him too much... and sadly that happens quite a lot... i'm seeing him in about two weeks... if he doesn't manage to get himself out of it in time... what really sucks is that whenever we talk i'm the one who calls or texts or says hi first... and part of me is like 'well maybe he hates your guts and finds you insanely anoying, like most people do'... but then part of me is like 'well he's probably busy... and lets face it i'm not exactly gonna be in his top 20 priorities list'... then part of me is like 'don't make excuses for him'... urgh... it's confusing at the best of times... oh well... i must digress i suppose... hey who knows, i might get out of this in one piece... i might even learn something from it... :-) Hopefully Unhinged

Outfits

these are some outfits i thought up... they're kind of emoish... but my friends tell me that i'm going through an emo phase... oh well... i'm sure i'll cheer up soon enough... :-]

Jake-and-Amir-Tribute

This is for the 'jake and amir' fans... i love 'jake and amir' and if you don't know what that or 'college humour' is then stop wasting your time on my crappy blog and go youtube them... anyhooty and the blowfish... for those of you who are fans here is amir in his signature penguin suit... i know i should probably stick to cartoon doodles rather than attempt realistic "pieces" but i tried my best... :-]

Band Names :-]

'Stuck at Sea' is what my ex's band's called... oh yeah... he's terrified of jelly fish......... the rest are just things i think would make really good band names
'Double Jointed Convicts' is for sure my favourite... :-]

Heart Break Scribbles

shockingly enough i did these after my guy chucked me... :-[ ... meh... i'll survive

James and Alex

This is my pirate who i've named 'James' and down there is my leprechaun who i've called 'Alex'

Augusté

So i've decided that instead of just blogging i'm gonna post up my weird biro scribbles i do in my free time....

---> This is a clown called 'Augusté'

soo... exams next week... aaah... gonna fail... oh well... so... i'm a little pissed... cause my ex-guy said he'd call about a week ago... so yeah... he's abandoned me... YAY... not... err... yeah so holding myself together... i suppose... :-|

Well i'm just as stressed as i was last time i posted something... exam week next week... oh shit... gonna fail in life... i miss my ex sooo much... talked to him on the phone on sunday... talked very briefly about meeting up... he said he'd call but i doubt he'll do that... i hope he will though... but yeah that's about it... i should probably do some work though... Stressfully Unhinged D-:

Boo-School-Stress

Boo! tomorrow i go back to school... i have 5 different tests i haven't revised for, art and dt prep i haven't done, friends who are all coping a million times better than me and to top it off no boyfriend to lean on... so sigh... i will just persevere and see what happens i suppose... nothing worth slitting my wrists over... but yeah... that is all... stressfully unhinged D-:

thinking-pathetic-plan

so... hmm... was thinking about my last post... kinda pathetic.... doesn't mean i'm over my ex guy... hmm... but i'm gonna try to not miss him so much... that's my plan... hmm... yeah... that is all... still depressed unhinged

AAAAAH!!!!!

I FEEL INSANELY SHITTY!!!! I MISS HIM SOOO MUCH.... i want to call him... i want to sprint from bath to bristol to find him... i want to tell him how i'll do anything i can to be with him... but i can't... i have to smile and say i'm fine and talk to my family as if he never existed... because as far as they know he didn't... i miss him and it's only been a week.... ONE WEEK... and i'm dying over here... how the hell am i suppose to do this.... someone please tell me... give a short cut or a cheat to just skip the pain bit and get to the bit where i can read the old texts he sent me without bursting into tears... and it doesnt help that he won't reply to the text i sent him nearly an hour ago... AAAAAH!!! i can't do this... i've been in my room crying for literally HOURS... i'm still not out of tears... i don't wan't to be this person... it SUCKS!!!

Back-Not my guy-Beyond crappy

hello... im back from Greece but leaving for Italy tomorrow... well saw my guy earlier... but he's not my guy anymore because he broke up with me... he said it was because of the age thing... i hope that's all it was... not much faith in that hope though... so yeah i cried a lot when he said we shouldn't be together like that... i think he still wants to be "friends" though... so that's a slap in the face... when we said by i basically burst into tears the second i turned around... then i walked around town crying for a while... so yeah... currently feeling beyond crappy... too crappy to be weird it would seem... insanely depressed unhinged

Twitter-My guy-Arm spoon

Yo Blogfaces... i got a twitter and if you go on it please realise that it's a joke and im not actually some kind of pity-me-im-so-alone attention whore. im just poking fun at people who are... it's a total jake and amir rip but still... hope you like it... saw my guy yesters but didn't ask for his position on the bloggage thing... sorrow... he is delicious though... anywhoooo... grr... going to greece in two days so bloggage will be rarer than usualspecially since after that im going to italy... should be good but ill miss my guy... damn... oh well... how long would it take to hack your arm off with a teaspoon?... Happily Unhinged :-]

Weird-Guy-Grarl

BLOGGAGE!!!! goarsh im beard.... (gosh im bored)... i figure i don't use enough wired (weird) language... so from now on i wills... N-E-whoooo... seeing the guy i've been talking about tomorrow... should be cool... but i really don't like blogging about shiat like datsu... it's awkweird... but he is lyke pure lurshness in a bowl... i might ask him tomorrow if he finds it strangeness if i blog about him... lols... ill keep on pasting (posting) though... GRRRAAARRRLLL!!! Happily Unhinged :-]

My boy-Lush-Socks

Hello all... if i can call 0 people "all"... so last time i posted something i was talking bout my MUN boy... well we met up on sunday and it was pretty awesome... we talked a lot... 3 1/4 hours to be precise... we've been texting and we had a 4 1/2 hour phone call the other night... he's pretty lush... anywho, starting to feel strange posting my personal life when it's about other people as well... so yeah... hmm... strange... well, how many pairs of socks can a person fit in their mouth... ankleless ones... ofcourse... ??? ... Happily Unhinged :-]

MUN guy-Sad- Distracted

Sooo... it's been two days since MUN... i met a really nice guy there... but he's 19... and i'm 14... so that sucks... and even though i know it's out of my control what age we are i still feel like i F-ed it all up in typical me style... but yeah... we're gonna be "friends" though... meeting him for coffee on friday... sigh... it was so weird last night on the phone we found out how old the other was and he seemed to have like a silent freak out... then it seemed so dead and over so like the second he hung up i burst into tears... but then he texted me and yeah... now we're gonna be "friends"... which i assume means he'll meet me for coffee on friday then try and run away from all thoughts of me... sigh... so that's had me kind of distracted... I don't have the energy to be weird... Depressed Unhinged :-[

Business gone-MUN-Fruit 'n' veg

i'm not particularly busy anymore... yay... i've done all my homework except my German which i will be getting on with soon... i FINALLY wrote my resolution for MUN... yay... MUN starts tommorrow... yay... so all in all things are looking up... i joined critica; thinking... fingers crossed all goes well... i'm still trying to make a mark on this world... so i suppose life is as it should be... but do fruits and vegetables come alive at night and throw disco's?... :-] Comfortably Unhinged

I suck-MUN-Cat dreams

Hello! god i suck at this whole blog thing i hardly ever make posts... the zero people who read this thing will be so mad at me... no one reads this flipping thing!!! well anyway... I'm a deligate at the Model United Nations!!! woohoo Suriname Health!!! it starts on friday which is cool... and my school hosts it!!! hmm what else is going on??? well i have loads of corse-work... yippee... and my Art and Design Tech. is killing me... so much work... plus I do not get my science work and my test score's are rolling down hill... grr... so that's why i can't keep up with this blog... oh well... Do you ever wonder if cats dream? and if so is it in colour? and if so do they ever dream they rule the world... except the world's going through an apocalypse and they must try to make sure that they are not overthrown by the angered mole-people?... because i don't... :-[] Busily Unhinged

Hi again-News a plenty-Yellow Snow

Hello again!!! I haven't posted anything in ages... doesn't really matter though because no one reads this blog anyway... whatever... I actually am overflowing with news... wierd... it's been snowing like mental... AAAH!!!... missed two days of school.... SCORE!!!.... it's been pretty freaking awesome... but tomorrow it looks like it's back to school... DAMN!!!... I finished the book type thing I was writing... it's only 17 A4 pages though... now I'm just kind of editing it... maybe I'll add some detail to pad it out... Oh! and I need to bake some stuff for a school bake sale... and practice for this little guitar thing we have to do at school... yeah... but my random wierdness of this post will be don't eat the yellow snow, and if you do, i don't wanna know!!! :-D Snowily Unhinged

Field trip-Ill-Cageon pat

Hey! went on a field trip to london yesterday... MUSEUM TRIP!!!! it was awesome. I'm still kind of sick though (or carrying the antichrist... still unsure) so that kind of sucks... anyway... I'm really exhausted which sucks.... yaawn... so yeah that's that... someone should try breeding a cat and a pigeon... cageon or pat!!! :-0 Sleepily Unhinged

Sick-Antichrist-Badgers

AAAH!!! I woke up at about 3:15 in the morning with this weird uncomfortable feeling in my stomach and i couldn't get back to sleep which was soooo frustrating... but then today at school it just kept getting worse... my friend thought i was pregnant with the antichrist... it's a long story... anyway... I'm feeling a little better now which is good... so anyway... how many squirrels would it take to out smart and out manoeuver a small colony of badgers?... :-S Uncomfortably Unhinged

Insomnia-Over sleeping-Aligators

So... due to last night's insomnia (me not sleeping till 3:10 am) I over slept today and had 20 minutes to get ready for school. Oh well, I still got there on time which was good. Surprisingly, I haven't actually been that tired today... which is kind of weird... just one of those things i guess... I have oodles of homework and three tests tomorrow which sucks... i guess i should go... oh dear... i haven't said anything remotely odd in this post... hmm... how many full grown alligators could you fit in the Royal Albert Hall... hmm... :-) Busily Unhinged

Coffee-Cat-Cucumber pizza

I must remind myself to never again down a monster mug of coffee... before bed... on a school night. I swear I've never felt so wide awake and it's currently 1:20 in the morning... I have to wake up in 5 hours and 40 minutes.

My cat isn't really helping either, he's asleep in my cupboard so I can't close the door and I hate sleeping with it open because it freaks me out. Plus I can't turn on my radiator because, Feng Shui Genius that I am, I put my wardrobe right over the twisty thing that switches it on. So it's basically the temperature of space in my room! Brrr.

Now I feel whiney and dull so let me think up something weird to say... hmm... sometimes I wonder what it would be like to put cucumber on a pizza.... :-) Wide-Awake Unhinged

Hello-Valentines-Monkey cage fight

Hi... so I'm kind of new to this whole blog thing, but i figure it'll be a good way to vent my issues... ok so I'm not exactly ridden with issues... at least now if I'm suddenly ambushed by an issue attack i have a place to vent.

Well valentines day's coming up and no I don't have a boyfriend shockingly enough. Is it just me or does anyone else think that valentines day should be renamed "hey-all-you-singles-gaze-upon-our-happiness-and-die-of-depression-and-extreme-loneliness-day"? hmm. I guess the cards would be kind of hard to sell... oh well just another one of my weird ideas.... like if you put a monkey with angel wings and a monkey with bull horns in a cage fight... which would win? just asking... so yeah i hope i can get used to this blog thing... :-) Happily Unhinged