Vain-Confusion-Hope

Hello all... i've decided to be vain and tell you about my life... celebrate! well it's been about a month and a half since my guy broke up with me... and i still get that sinking, deflated feeling whenever i think about him too much... and sadly that happens quite a lot... i'm seeing him in about two weeks... if he doesn't manage to get himself out of it in time... what really sucks is that whenever we talk i'm the one who calls or texts or says hi first... and part of me is like 'well maybe he hates your guts and finds you insanely anoying, like most people do'... but then part of me is like 'well he's probably busy... and lets face it i'm not exactly gonna be in his top 20 priorities list'... then part of me is like 'don't make excuses for him'... urgh... it's confusing at the best of times... oh well... i must digress i suppose... hey who knows, i might get out of this in one piece... i might even learn something from it... :-) Hopefully Unhinged