Back-Not my guy-Beyond crappy

hello... im back from Greece but leaving for Italy tomorrow... well saw my guy earlier... but he's not my guy anymore because he broke up with me... he said it was because of the age thing... i hope that's all it was... not much faith in that hope though... so yeah i cried a lot when he said we shouldn't be together like that... i think he still wants to be "friends" though... so that's a slap in the face... when we said by i basically burst into tears the second i turned around... then i walked around town crying for a while... so yeah... currently feeling beyond crappy... too crappy to be weird it would seem... insanely depressed unhinged